inloved @
10:49 PM

medyo mtagal n rin akong d nka2pgpost d2 ah!!! kailangan ksing mkalimot eh!! wel.. medyo ok nnmn poh akoh eh, kya lng medyo nani2bago lng ng konti, wla nmn mxadong ngyri this past few days eh… this week puro kmi nka business suit ksi nnd2 ung mga clients, pnkila2 nga me dun s isa eh, grabe nngi2nig me s kaba, pro ok lng ksi mbait rin nmn ung clients.. lhat ng T.L. d2 bngyan ng PSP.. astigg nga eh, ganda pti.. sana me rin bgyan!!!bat cla lng!!hehehe, weather weather lang yan!!!

inloved @
9:25 AM

Monday, July 11, 2005

inloved @
12:15 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

I feel alone… I went to church for the afternoon mass, and prayed for everything, I know He has a purpose why this is happening to me, I prayed that this is not happening, I prayed that he will come back soon…That I’m not loosing him. I love him, and I don’t want to lose him. But it’s happening, and it’s hurt me more knowing that, I wouldn’t have him anymore. When I reached home, I decided to go to Darling, I just need someone to lean on, because I think it would break me. I told everything to her, she kindda amused, because she know the guy. She telling me that I can overcome this, she know I will… she’s comforting me, she told me she had the same situation as I do right now… and if she make it, she know I will, also. She understands me why I’m feeling this way. And it’s hard, the pain is killing me inside! I just pray it’s over, so the pain will end…

inloved @
10:15 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

We’ve talked, and he doesn’t want me to wait him!!! He told me that 3yrs is too long for me to wait, he also told me, “what if 3yrs is over, and we’re still together, and you’re still waiting…I don’t want you to wait that long, besides, you’re still young… you can still find the right guy for you.” And I started crying again, telling those things, make me feel it’s already over!! I don’t know what to feel that time, I felt uncomfortable. Coz, it’s like we had promised to each other that we will wait for the right time to come for both of us, and yet now, we’re going to part ways!!! It’s just that, for a time, he’s been part of me. He’s been part of my everyday routine. And it would not be easy for me now…now that he’s GONE!!

inloved @
2:33 PM

THIS IS THE END… for more than 1week now, I’ve experienced the BEST days of my life… it’s really hard for me to tell this to all of you guys, but I need someone to lean on… sat. around 12:30am we talked about our situation… he told me that, he, and his gf had a talked regarding their relationship… they've already fixed it, the girl told that she doesn't want to end their relationship, and that she wants him to wait until she finish school, and that will be 3 yrs. from now… and he said he will, then I start crying, because I know for sure,what will happen to our relationship, he said a lot of things, he’s trying to explain to me everything, I said ok! But deep inside of me… it’s not ok!!! I kept crying, I don’t know what to say, I have a lot of things to tell him, but I can’t find a way to say it. I’m just crying… It hurts!!! I went to work, and I felt depressed… I fell alone, I fell restless!!! I can’t concentrate on my things because I’m thinking of him. I want to cry all over again, just to ease the pain, I went to the lady’s room I cried there, I don’t care if anyone can see me, I just wanted to cry. After shift, I decided to talked to him, again… I hope it will end good. Please!!!

inloved @
11:14 AM

i don't want to lose him..i'll make the worse be better.. i know it's hard..but with him by my side, i know i can make it..he loves me..and i know he really do..and i also know that DEAR GOD will always be there for me.. he's my strength..and i believe in him.

inloved @
9:27 AM

Friday, July 08, 2005

ngkita kmi knina...and he's still the gwapo guy i've seen last 2 weeks ago.. ngkita kmi s school, pmunta xa dun!! tpos kmain kmi ng lunch s CHOWKING, we ate beef chao pan, wanton siomai, and iced tea... we just talked the whole tym, ti2gan n parng wla ng ktpusan!!!grabe ung mata, nda2la akoh skanya!! dmi rin nmin npagkwenthan..kng pno ngstart kmi ngkaroon ng communiction..kwento 2ngkol s school..and he told me "gumaganda k yata mxado ngaun?" npngiti lng ako..iniba koh ung usapan, tpos kwinento koh nga ung 2ngkol s prof koh, ung khapon, sbi nya "mgaling k nmn n nung 1styr hgh school plang eh" mdyo ngbblush akoh dun ah!!ayun, we tlked about us, and our situation right now..usap dw cla ngaun nung gf nya, i hope it will end up positive..after that lunch..ng-ikot-ikot muna kmi..then after 20 min. blik n kmi s school, dun lng kmi s lbas ksi ayw xang pa2susukin ksi outsider dw, usap lng kmi dun s lbas..tpos ung mga friends koh, bumaba, nkita nla xa..pinkila2koh, ask nyga nla kung bf koh, d ako mkasgot..sbi nla "to be?" umoo n lng ako..nung ng-uusap kmi s chowking, eh may serious tlk..he almost cry, tngo nya lng, yumuko xa, pra d koh mkita, and mdyo naiiyak nga rin me, i knew it..i love this guy.. it's not a fling or what..and he makes me feel, na gnun din xa!!!how i wish n sana d n ntpos ung time n un!!!that's memorable..ksi the guy o love..loves me too.. and i can feel that..

inloved @
6:10 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

mganda ang arw koh ngaun!!!y? tgal koh xang nkausap and napuri me ng prof koh.."magaling yan eh..laht ng quizzes nya at assignment, perfect..gling nya c Razon.." hehehe mdyo nmula nga akoh dun eh!!khiya!! xa rin ung ngsbi nung 1st day n "maganda tlga ang mga kath!!" sbi nmn ni HON, 22o dw un, nni2wla dw xa s prof nmin!!heheh.. ayun, nung nsa bhay n me nka2log n me hndi koh p rin xa nka2usap!!medyo sad nga poh eh..miz koh p man din xa, d xa ksama s accquaintance nmin ksi nga cla ang ka2nta s choir nla ng Saturday n un, so no choice iban lng isa2ma koh.. it’s either si darl or khit n cno!!! Pro sbi nya sunduin nya me, kso de p xa sure ksi bka may work xa nun..mag-aapply nag xa tomorrow, sna mkuha xa, pray nio rin poh ah!! Ayun, su2nduin nga nya me tomorrow after nyang pmunta s office nung pag-aapplyan nya..hayyy..i miss him..

inloved @
7:16 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

he's so sweet tlga..nung d me nka2in ng lunch ksi naiwan koh ung pera koh..tpos offline p ung atm..tnext koh ksi xa nun kya nlamn nya..sobrang alala dw xa skin, d nmn dw xa mkapgtxt ksi naubusan n xa ng lod.. tpos ask xa skin kng kumain n me,,and lkung mrmi.. sbi nya sna dw mgksma kmi pr naaalagaan nya me.. and sbi nya p kung nnd2 dw xa d rw mangya2ri un, mdyo msakit p ung tommy koh, and may headache p akoh, sbi nya inuman koh daw kgad ng gmot..pra mtanggal. mdyo mainit n rin me, sbi nya ask koh k ma2 pra dw matgnn ako.. sbra tlga xang ng-aala2. and ramdam koh un..and naicp koh rin, though may gf xa, he never make me feel n may iba nga.. i know ayw nya akong mahirapn..sbinga nya, ok lng dw kng may iba akng ngu2stuhan eh..sbi koh nmn iintayin koh xa!!! we just pray n sana we end up together..

inloved @
6:40 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

nakatulugan koh n ung pagiintay skanya..nbsa koh n rin ung mga txt nya skin, ito ung 2 s knila..it's so swit kya ipa2bsa koh rin sainyo..

tx aq syo pgdtng q..tndaan m mhl n mhl kta...sna poh mhintym q..

ito p ung isa..

hon d2 p poh aq kla (grl name)..gcng k p poh b..?ano poh gwa m..?nty m poh aq hngng s pguwi..?tpos tx aq syo pra col m q kng ok lng poh...hon mhl n mhl poh kta...txbk poh nty q poh ngyn...

ayun lng, i called him around 10am..usap, usap..tpos cnbi nya n ayw dw mkipgbreak nung gf nya..ayw daw xang pkawaln..sbi nya kung mka2pg-intay p dw ako..medyo mtagl, sbi nya p, pg ngbreak nman dw cla nung gf nya me ang unang-una nyang pu2nthan..d ako mkapgsalita, kz, ang skit..tpos bglang nmatay ung call, God indeed n rinm cgro.. ngtxt xa n sana dw mainty koh xa..actually nung bnbsa koh ung txt nya, i was crying..iyak lng ako ng iyak..i know s una p lng..i'll be facing this kind of situation..hinnda koh n nga poh ung srili koh eh..pro iba pla tlga, ang skit..ang sakit sakit.. sbi nya sna dw wlang mgbago s feelings koh..f ever nmn daw n may mgus2han akong iba, ok lng daw sknya.. pro ayoko, sbi koh skanya iintyin koh xa khit p mtgal..

inloved @
10:19 AM

Monday, July 04, 2005

ngbyad lng me pra s acquitance, and prelim..aun medyo maulan..before me ngpunta s bank, ngusap muna kmi..ni ano, ung guy n kinkwen2 koh..ayun punta daw xa myang gbi s hauz nung gf nya, ksi nga bday nung mother nung gf..sbi nya kung ok lng, sbi koh ok lng, khit deep inside of me, sobrang skit.. sbi nya txt nya me pgkauwi nya later p nmn un eh..nsa2ktan akoh..pero wla nmn akong mgawa, ung grl n un ang nauna, though cnsbi nya n sna dw akoh n lng ang nauna dun s grl, sbi koh una nmn meng dmting eh, hgh school plang mgkakla2 n kmi, d nya lng ako pinpnsin. iniintindi koh n lng..mhal koh xa eh, ayoko rin n mhirapan xa ksi d nmn nya gnusto ung gnito..basta sbi nya, intay lang ako..drating din dw kmi dun..sbi nya p, kung kmi daw tlga khit gno ktagal kmi mgintay, kmi tlga..mgpray n lng dw poh kmi!!4 sure nman i-ga-grant ni JESUS un eh..

inloved @
2:09 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

12am exact, he texted me if pwede b xang pumasyal d2 s hauz..it's weird, ksi y nmn xa pu2nta d2, though cnbi nya psyal lng nmn dw, and gs2 nya lng pumunta d2..sbi koh pag-icpan koh p, sbi nya cge dw.. the feeling sarap, the thing n pu2nta xa d2 s hauz, is so exciting n, what more p kung higit p dun dba?!ayun usap lng kmi ng usap..wla nmn ksi me pasok ng sunday kya ok lng n mgpuyat me..minsan lng nmn poh..and kung pra s kanya lng, hindi n ako ma22log!!hehehe!!we talked about the past, nung high school days nmin, sbi nya"dba, crush moh akoh mung 1st yr tau?" npa-HUH?! akoh, ksi hindi nman eh, sbi koh "ung friend moh ang crush koh nun..""ah talga sbi nya" tpos sbi nya alm moh, "crush kta b4 eh" npa-HUH?! akoh ulit, sbi koh, "bago yan ah!!!" sbi nya "isyu un" ngulat tlga akoh, ksi d nmn poh halta nun eh, we're friends and hindi nmn gnun kclose...ayun, gumaganda ung usapan nmin..ask nya about dun s mga nging bf's koh..ngu2lat tlga akoh s mga tanong nya, pro cnsgot koh nmn, exciting ksi intresado xa s mga nngya2ri skin..yiieee!!! mga around 2am n..medyo tinatblan n akoh ng antok, nung maputol ung call, medyo naidlip ako ng 10mins.. nung tumawag me ulit skanya..may tamong daw xa, sbi koh ano un? sbi nya "pno kung itnong koh kung ok lng b n mngligw ako sau?" actually ung antok koh nun nwala, mdyo n2la2 ako ng konti sbi koh"tka lng ha?"sbi koh p s srili koh..22o b ito? is he really asking me? bnlikan koh xa after ilng seconds.."tintnong moh n b akoh ngaun?"sbi nya oo, ok lng b?sagot koh"ok lng" ask nya "may pag-asa b?" sbi koh"oo" ask nya"MALAKI?" sbo koh, "oo" "talga?" sbi koh ulit, "oo" sbi nya, "kat, sna maintay moh akoh..alam moh nman cguro kung bkit.." sbi koh "oo" until that time, prang d p rin akoh mkapniwla..sbi nga nung kuya nya, punta dw akoh dun sknla, tomorrow..parng gs2 koh, pro prng ayoko..ksi xempre ano nmn ung iispin nung fmily nya..my gf xa tpos pupunta p me sknila..hayy i love this guy so much..kya nga poh iintyin koh xa..hayyy

inloved @
10:50 AM

Friday, July 01, 2005

kausap koh xa..knina..sobrang concern xa skin!! pinag-uspan nmin kung may nging bf n dw me..sbi koh dmi na!!hehehe, tpos ask nya kung ano ung type of guy koh..cnbi koh nmn..gulo nga poh ng uspan nmin eh, ksi npu2tol pu2l.. kaya un. inask koh xa kung ilang months n cla ng gf nya, sbi nya 2yrs and 1month n daw..grabe tagl n.. wla akong pnma dun, prang malyo n yata n mainlove un ng 2luyan skin!!! sbi nya phinga n dw me, kc bka mgkaskit me..sbi koh mxado k nmng concern sbi nya xempre FRIEND nya akoh eh.. Ouch!! skit nmn nun, FRIEND lng pla nya ako!!cguro nga ngha2nap lng un ng mgpagli2bngan. hayyy.. bngyan nya p me ng advce..ask nya ksi me kung y koh cnsgot ung mga nging bf koh, sbi koh ksi akla koh xa n!!, sbi nya, wag koh dw iicpin un, pra d dw me msktan ng sobra ta mnghinyang s huli...wel, he's right.. d koh lng msabi n tngin koh nkita koh n ung guy n un..s katauhan nya!!!

inloved @
6:34 PM